100% idiot since 2004 | account focused on MEN possibly Bara style middle aged men | current focus on Fallen Aces, among other Men Games | main @EUK508S_einhorn
oh. if this wasn't clear this account is owned by a "certified psychological gooner" who enjoys joking around, writing about, drawing and headcanoning shit about fictional characters' sexualities and general sexual themes and such.
please be aware of that before you follow ty! ❤️
removed a couple of drawings, it's back up now but still the idea alone that i had to remove a couple of images for this is still pissing me off a bit ngl
patreon flagged the fucking kinktober+ day 2 post for sexual violence, i am going to lose it my fucking god. why are we still here. just to suffer. fuck me dude fuck them paypros fuck them puritan groups fuck this fascistic puritanical turn of the world fuck everything bro
i'm probably gonna have to think better about things like finances from now on, considering the current world situation not everyone can afford to patron some artist or comm them something out of nowhere, which is something i have to be aware of for now at least
patreon flagged the fucking kinktober+ day 2 post for sexual violence, i am going to lose it my fucking god. why are we still here. just to suffer. fuck me dude fuck them paypros fuck them puritan groups fuck this fascistic puritanical turn of the world fuck everything bro
i've scheduled them anyway, i'm gonna drink a midday horoyoi and go a mimir for now because i don't think i'm in the right state of mind to draw considering that Patreon thingy pissed my off a lot and the allnighter probably fucked my ability to trace clean, precise lines for now
weird fucking thing that comes from you hating yourself THIS MUCH and believing you must appeal to everyone other than yourself especially ESPECIALLY those who created the stuff you like because it feels like the one bit of possible affection you might actually deserve for real
i think if i don't separate the idea of main/official artists or devs liking my work from my works from the idea that my work is actually worth anything i might start spiraling back into self hatred for not appealing to devs i can't read the minds of just for affection points
there's this weird part of me that begs to be recognised and loved and have my works validated by "big authorities" surrounding the works i love and i wish i could just get rid of it entirely because i know it's putting a leash on my creativity esp when it comes to Mike stuff