You need boredom. A lot of it. Start by going on walks without music. No stimulation. No distractions of any kind. If you learn to sit with your own thoughts, for long enough, in time they will start serving you. You'll start having ideas once again. You'll start developing an extreme sense of clarity that will shift you into the next stage of your life. All by being bored, which is pretty insane.
keep doing things for you. just for you. for your own recognition, for your own approval, for your own joy. keep doing things that spark your confidence and self understanding. keep experiencing yourself.
in the end, the girl who treats a man like a debit card always seems to come out on top. Meanwhile, the girls asking for nothing but attention, effort, and consistency end up in therapy trying to heal from it.
you need to learn to stay away from people who make you mean, crazy or reactive. that’s not you or who you want to be. so if they being that out of you, they’ve got to go