Gentle reminder: You can rise up from anything. You can recreate yourself. Nothing is permanent. You are not stuck. You have choices. You can think new thoughts. You can learn something new. You can create new habits. All that matters is that you decide today and never look back.
I was today years old when I found out that there is a difference between
"depression" and "languishing"
Languishing is a state whereby you feel empty and stagnated. Empty in a way you can't properly explain. Nothing is necessarily wrong...but nothing feels that right either.
It is the state or void between depression and flourishing. You are functioning alright, just without excitement, purpose or momentum. I mean you have energy to perform your daily tasks and expectations, but life feels muted and uninspiring.
So maybe you are not depressed, you are just languishing.