Nothing scares me into shape quite like death. I am afraid and I need to make a change. I could still be high but I will hold myself to this until I feel better
I have always had health anxiety but I think it has come to a head in the past month or so, likely brought out by my marijuana usage as that is the common denominator, causing me to have heart palpitations which then trigger me to hyperventilate for a second, before stopping.
I really don’t want to elaborate more than I already have but I need to stop smoking, maybe stop drinking caffeine as well, entirely for the time being. And maybe get back on my actual medication when the time is right, and start being a lot more healthy.
I need to quit smoking for a while and see where that gets me. I am currently spamming Google with queries about various concerning things that have happened with my body over time and it’s giving me nothing but reassurance that I’m fucked and I fucked myself up
@pkdragon234@TheXclusiveAce It’s still in BO7 in the same way, as single playlists below quick play, there’s just a better selection of modes in MW4 at the moment and it’s named differently. If they at least keep this selection of modes I’m fine with it
@TheXclusiveAce I love this and I hope they don’t remove it. It’s not transformative but drastically improved my last hour or so of gameplay. I still had my gripes with gameplay and maps but I could at least compete with people, or play a couple matches with them to learn to play against them
I play with at most one headphone on, and for my initial few matches didn’t even have my headphones on. I could hear stomping the room over. It’s one thing to have footstep audio, of course you need that in an FPS, but for fucks sake IW, you have had years now to fix this.
Genuinely played one match on this map and came to a conclusion, you have to be fucking deranged to have ever designed something like this. This isn’t even like classic COD1/2 map design where it’s unconventional, no, there’s a ramp in the middle where the guy with high ground-
It was also called to my attention while playing that the footsteps are entirely too present in a game with a perk that mutes them in the same slot as a perk that adds back Tactical Sprint without the one thing that made people hate it, being the sprint-to-fire time.
Like they're finally able to load you into the match you find almost instantly, almost like everyone playing has an SSD now (they do). Performance is about as good as you can expect from a game in 2026
It's not horrible but I can't shake the feeling that, somewhere along the way, they completely and totally reworked the multiplayer experience to be more 'classic'. I just get that vibe. Matchmaking still sucks but load times once you find a match are impressive.