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Offensive Thoughts Anonymous.

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I don’t want what I say to be a soft whisper.

I want you to hear me.

I am the unavoidable noise.

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I’ll probably never know love

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I thought of you again

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I read and I write and I think and I dream about the lives I didn’t ever get to live

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And the next and next and next

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I’ll miss you this lifetime to the next

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I don’t think I’ll ever want to do this shit

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I forgot what that looked like

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A longing

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I don’t feel like engaging in human activities

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Sometimes I miss you unexpectedly

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I probably do this every year but I’m tired of being a human right now

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I like to hold in my heart that you wish things were different like I do

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I thought the love we made was real

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that wouldn’t be the first time I should have believed you

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On this day in 2020
We took a trip

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And I said I was sorry and I believed you

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And I laughed

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You touched the guardrail and told me it felt electric
that it shocked you

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We walked for miles
Crossed the highway overpass