Carly ☃️

22 years old// Life doesn't change. Byee 😌❤

[Carly ☃️ @undiagnosed__]

I hate that people assume if you have a ED you're skinny. Like I reached my highest weight while having my ED, not before, not after, DURING

[Carly ☃️ @undiagnosed__]

I really want to cut. Not for any specific reason I just miss the feeling of it as sick as it sounds 😕

[Carly ☃️ @undiagnosed__]

Well it's been a full year since I've been on this account. I wish I could say I've gotten better, but I just feel like I'm out of control again. I just miss having people that understand.

[Carly ☃️ @undiagnosed__]

Reaching my breaking point again

[Carly ☃️ @undiagnosed__]

And this week let's see how much weight I can lose before Saturdays vacation where I'll probably end up gaining 20 more pounds before then 👍🏼

[joanne @Prettyinthin]

“Why can’t you get better?”

My ED is my coping mechanism.

My ED is my identity, my sense of self.

I’m so used to being sick, I feel like I have to be sick because I am the “sick one”

My ED blocks all the emotional turmoil I’m in.

So I ask, “why should I get better?”

[Carly ☃️ @undiagnosed__]

I realized that I dont hate myself, I just hate my mind for making me think I hate myself.

[Carly ☃️ @undiagnosed__]

Why do I hate my life so much when I have everything I could want

[Carly ☃️ @undiagnosed__]

There's something about feeling empty when not eating to match how empty you feel inside that's kind of soothing

[Carly ☃️ @undiagnosed__]

Really want to do the ABC diet.. Already know I'll fail on day one..

[Carly ☃️ @undiagnosed__]

I want to start using this again but my boyfriend found out a couple months ago about this and I'm scared he's still checking in on it but fuck it at least he'll know I'm really feeling since I can't talk about anything to anyone and this is my outlet

[Carly ☃️ @undiagnosed__]

This is why I hate people..

[Carly ☃️ @undiagnosed__]

Officially 31 days to lose 30 pounds before I leave for Puerto Rico on the 31st

[Carly ☃️ @undiagnosed__]

Why is living so exhausting

[Carly ☃️ @undiagnosed__]

But like what's the point anymore am I right?

[Carly ☃️ @undiagnosed__]

Like I would be so much more okay with my body if my legs weren't literal tree trunks

[Carly ☃️ @undiagnosed__]

I went almost the entire day without eating yesterday till I got home and we went out to dinner and I wasn't going to get anything but they ordered food for me and I ate it all. I really hate myself

[Carly ☃️ @undiagnosed__]

Literally me everyday of my life since I'm always cold and shivering https://t.co/3kGiovpFzu

[midas @dietcigss]

People in winter: wow it’s so cold, I hope I don’t get sick.

Me: I wonder how many calories my body is burning from working extra to keep me warm.

[Carly ☃️ @undiagnosed__]

My timeline has turned into promotional twitter pages and irrelevant videos of nothing, I need to follow more of ED twitter people on here

[Carly ☃️ @undiagnosed__]

Just found my suicide note from 2016. Fuck my life