It was never the same
It was never the same
Once you left
You left me in a dark place
That dark place made me feel nothing
You made me a different person by leave me like you did
Now I don’t care I stop feeling anything forever
Why can’t any conversation we have end peaceful
Why does it always end in war
Why can’t we just see each other pint of view
Why can’t we just have a conversation
It ended
those big red bold words
DELETE 700 ITEAMS
I pressed it
Then I pressed cancel
I wasn’t ready
wasn’t ready to delete all of our memories
wasn’t ready to forget about you
I didn’t want to leave you.
Caring
When do you know when to care
Someone never really knows when to care
You have to just hope and pray that you know what you doing is the right decision
Or you can just not care by not feeling nothing for forever.
I hope death is like
being carried to your bedroom
when you were a child
and fell asleep on the couch
during a family party.
i hope you can still hear
the infectious laughter
from the next room over.
Sometimes i wonder
what life would be like
if we had never met
if we never collided in this lifetime
or learned what the curve
of each other’s faces felt like
who would I be if I had never held your hand
who would I be if i had never been loved by you
Maybe I’ll never get an answer.
maybe you’ll read my poems and finally understand
Or maybe you won’t
Maybe we’ll get a chance to start over. Or maybe we don’t
Maybe our paths will cross again,
Or maybe we’ll go in opposite I directions
I’m okay, even if we never speak again
I prayed for you.
I prayed that I could be with you.
I prayed that one day you’d call me yours.
I had no idea that God, gave me you only to keep you for some time, for me to learn nothing ever stays.
Except, our memories did.
She took me from a dark place only to throw my back into it,
Pushing me deeper into the abyss of grief.
As I held on,
I watched as my life fell apart,
Before my sorrowful eyes.
She left me,
and everything fell apart.
I had no idea I’d love someone so much,
as soon as I started to create a good life for myself,
as soon as I started to feel content,
She left.
The Way I Adored You
It wasn’t your eyes that made me fall in love with you,
It wasn’t your smile,
your beautiful face,
or your body
It was your heart,
A heart that I knew I’d never see again.
That’s what made you beautiful to me.