i did not relapse because of him at all, i’m not even sure if he knows i’m still very much disordered, i relapsed because of my own view of myself and my body. there is still a part of me that also wants to be beautiful for him, but i know he doesn’t want this 4 me at all ):
posted this the day b4 i asked out my bf…
i was convinced i would relapse out of fear of him seeing me as fat as i am; but instead he has shown me time and time again that he loves me for me.
i am so lucky to be loved so gently despite my rottenness
genuinely do have a lot of respect for people who detransition and are normal about it btw, it's really brave to experiment with your gender no matter the outcome and even cooler to own how it wasn't what you wanted without blaming anyone else
i don’t intend this to mean that weight restoration is a bad thing, i just think it is incredibly dumb to believe that recovery of any kind won’t lead to weight restoration of some sort. i am pro recovery!!! and always will be
stop because weight restoration humbled me so fucking bad. if you think it will never happen to you, IT WILL. i’m 10-15 lbs from my sw and i just got out of “recovery”
stop because weight restoration humbled me so fucking bad. if you think it will never happen to you, IT WILL. i’m 10-15 lbs from my sw and i just got out of “recovery”