im very scared of my mom getting older, i've always been concerned about this as a kid especially after having had experienced parental loss already. but now it is a very real thing and it is making me sick everything is a lot right now
I feel guilty for not being a normal kid with a normal relationship with Legit Everything. there is endless weight crushing down upon my heart and i dont really know what im supposed to do about any of it
I fucked up schooling and i still cant drive so im at home most of the time and a lot of my friends live far away if not most. I am incredibly lonely and it makes me feel guilty because im in my fucking room when i could be spending it with my mom
Everything feels like it is falling apart and it lowkey is i think i hope this is just sleep deprivation talking but im genuinely in probably the worst places in my life. Not necessarily mentally (which isnt great to begin with) but in the grand scheme of things