User82827819

eternal return

[User82827819 @user7111010]

This has nothing to do with my account but I had a really vivid dream of hotdiggedydemon fucking me

[User82827819 @user7111010]

I still don't feel beautiful

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Employed again soon. This will either make me more suicidal or a little less

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I literally feel stuck in my life, it's just a circle. Everything repeats and the pain is neverending. I need to escape my life I need to escape my body I can't do this

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I think about how there's never going to be anyone to save me, I have to be the one saving myself but I don't want to, I don't wanna do it for me

[User82827819 @user7111010]

If God was real he would've loved me enough to end my life to take my pain away

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The only comfort I have in this life is that eventually it's all going to end no matter what

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It's so hard to sleep at night. All I keep thinking about is killing myself, I don't know what to do. The medications aren't working.

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I've been trying to cry out all of my emotions in the shower and I literally just can't, yet I find myself trying to fight off tears in the most inconvenient times.

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I've been physically abused for a bit more than half my life. It's been a few years since I've been physically hurt by a beating and did everything to escape it; yet all I want now is for someone to abuse me. Why is my brain like this

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Is it normal to send clear signals that you're suicidal yet no one reaches out or comments? I understand people are probably very uncomfortable by the notion, yet everyone acts so surprised when someone commits suicide. I don't understand what it will take for someone to care.

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I want to be killed brutally. I can't shake the feeling that I deserve it

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Told my friends I was going through a rough time; told them I could still see them on hangouts just not every weekday like usual; 3 hangouts so far I haven't been invited to, none have asked how I've been either. Feeling like hurting myself

[User82827819 @user7111010]

@mistigri_0000 pls more

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Humanity has endured more suffering than it's ever felt happiness and health, I don't want to be here anymore

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Living past the age of 25 sounds agonizing and unnecessary. I feel like I've lived my entire life already

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I've heard of so many stories where a person is put in a situation like this and even when innocent they kill themselves impulsively. I want to know what instinct causes this and exactly what they feel or think before they do it. Sometimes they don't even have a final message

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Watched the suicide of Budd Dwyer recently and it's one of the most satisfying suicides I've ever seen. His nose was like a faucet. I've never seen blood escaping the body so fast before. Story behind it also interesting

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I've been obsessed with watching people shoot themselves and people getting shot. It's distressing for me to watch but I'm addicted to it, the tragedy is so interesting to me in ways I can't explain. I keep wanting to know what their last thoughts would've been

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When you're subjected to constant suffering in your life; your brain tries to disguise it as something pleasure able to cope with it (kinks/fetishes)
My interests have only gotten more and more concerning and I'm too ashamed to get help.

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When I heard the case of "datbeheading" aka "the Vietnamese butcher", I felt connected to the reason why his fascination with wanting to be beheaded started