Ruby

edtwt, forced recovery, diagnosed ana, need new moots, love any and all spo’s, follow to be moots :) cw-41.6kgs ~92lbs 🫶🏽weightless girl🫶🏽

[Ruby @userr78290]

can never have too many moots/accountability buddies, follow and i’ll follow back <3
-h - 160cm (literally shrinking😭)
-sw - 64kgs ~141lbs
-cw - 50.5kgs ~111lbs :/
-gw - 45kgs ~99lbs
-ugw - 35kgs ~77lbs
-lw - 40kgs ~88lbs
-age - 17
FORCED RECOV😭

[Ruby @userr78290]

@finasmind @nymadora @cynicaIIyours I’d love a tag please !

[Ruby @userr78290]

@tre2y I feel this, when I was younger the cupboards were locked and we had to get permission to eat and now she’s severely over feeding me can’t find a good middle ground it seems, she’s had disordered eating (both ways) for my whole life from what i can remember

[Ruby @userr78290]

Personally I loved it, it shows the impact of it all on others while also himself and I think also shows how little self worth one can have and the impact it has on relationships.
Also quiet a few relatable parts w the father / daughter relationship and the mum

[Ruby @userr78290]

GUYS IF YOU NEED FATPSO / GROSSSPO / SADSPO (lit anything but thinspo)
WATCH THE WHALE !!!!
Watched it for the first time turned and I think it’s gonna become a repeat..
(Sorry the pics aren’t good)

[Ruby @userr78290]

Guys what do we think ?!
Also is it weird to say I loved the pain and was literally thinking about booking another whilst getting tattooed. #neda #semicolon

[Ruby @userr78290]

Sorry for fully ghosting lol
forced recovery was / is HELL, as soon as I move out I just know I’m gonna slip back down the rabbit hole. The comfy, reassuring, controllable rabbit hole.

[Ruby @userr78290]

@Skinyblakcoquet Which do you prefer, the stepper or the treadmill ? 🫶🏽

[Ruby @userr78290]

@recovery_idk @spitandtears111 And she said she’d get a psych evaluation and take me to court and argue I’m ’too unwell to make rescissions for myself’ and either she moves to WA or I go to ACT. Hoping I can fight ed urges till I move out so that she sees I’m somewhat stable and I can actually move

[Ruby @userr78290]

@recovery_idk @spitandtears111 When I was like unwell and talking about how as soon as I’m 18 I’m moving out (my whole life before I got sick my parents were always saying as soon as we’re 18 we’re out) but now anytime I talk abt it mum says smth abt mental and physical health and how if I’m moving to WA

[Ruby @userr78290]

@verarexiccz @LAINSHEART But sometimes the person who steals it is bigger and stronger than you, if smn bigger and stronger than me took my bike im not gonna run around telling people he took my bike who’s gonna get hurt and who’s gonna get believed? I didn’t get believed.

[Ruby @userr78290]

@urstarsana I’ve tried messaging you but it doesn’t work

[Ruby @userr78290]

@timelytulip @boneforexic Where abts in ais are you from? I’ve been admitted in 3 dif states (I move a lot, I feel like no matter how well I am every move triggers a relapse) and they left it in till it needed to come out, I now live in SE Asia and was allowed to go home w a tube

[Ruby @userr78290]

@bebeslittlelife I’d love a tag

[Ruby @userr78290]

@ashervents My mum caught on i was replacing the ensure so now she watches me take the seal off every time

[Ruby @userr78290]

@elianiscrazy4me Idk what I am atm ik I’m above 50 but I think I’m below 55… idk oh I’d take the L and lose when I move out, I used to be bmi 13 but hospital and ngt fucked that up for me 😭😭

[Ruby @userr78290]

@Annie0391540151 @bellakendalll I’m down!!

[Ruby @userr78290]

@M3te0rite @bambigrll What’s her @ ?
I have a friend like that but not for views more for sympathy and kindness and money

[Ruby @userr78290]

@cherrypepsixo @smorewhore1 I got my IB exams today 😭😭

[Ruby @userr78290]

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