merriweather does not have the capacity to be doing all this and that’s what i have to keep reminding myself. it would be hell on earth it is not worth it even if nina is there and underscores and slayyyter and rico nasty and magdalena bay and…
talked to my therapist about feeling like i’m not doing enough and he told me “wait i have a new word i can use!!” and then proceeded to tell me to be less hard on myself bc i am “not a chud”