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♱ Aim ♱
♱ Professional Poker player 🃏♱
♱🖤: Music, Emo, Goth fashion, Literature.
♱ Diagnosed with: ♱
• Anorexia
• Schizoid Personality Disorder
• Depression
• ADHD
♱ TW: ED & self harm (I don’t post SH pictures).
♱ DNI if under 18 or in recovery.
i feel lonely. i feel worse— strange. and when i leave i cry in the car. and i say to myself that the trouble with life is that people are strangers. anne... people are strangers. i don't know if i can go on spilling myself out to people— those strange strangers.
I was so miserable as I was starving to get to my LW. I then remained miserable, still, while I was at it. Now that I’ve lost it, of course I feel even more disgusting.
Is this just how life will always be? How can I possibly go on like this? Christ. This is exhausting.
I can’t believe I hit my LW this year and fucking ruined it by “recovering” (trying to maintain instead of lose bc I felt guilty worrying everyone.)
I gained nearly 4 KG.
I feel disgusting. I want to claw myself out of my body. I need to be back at my LW by New Year’s Eve.