@vindthhn You can reach out to me genuinely you brighten my day even tho we don't rlly know each other and don't interact a ton it means a lot that you're here
Genuinely about to kms I just tried to talk to my dad about being upset that everyone in the house was hateful towards me lately and he just got mad at me and now I think he's gonna hate me too, I genuinely can't do this anymore.
@fridge_pink And also she said "we've been programmed to thing skinny is the only way of being healthy" who even said I cared about being healthy ๐ no I just don't want to be fat ๐คท๐ผโโ๏ธ
@sodiumslutt My arms because they won't get smaller no matter how hard I try like they aren't but in proportion to the rest of my body parts they are nd it makes me so mad
@ghost_1qq RIGHT it's literally ALL I think about, my only interest like it quite literally controls my life the only way I have the energy to do ANYTHING is "it burns cals to do *insert thing*" wtf do they do with their mind and how do they have motivation to do random stuff???
See I like this bc it rlly shows how you'll lose FAT and not water so yeah also I usually eat under 250 lately but I like to keep my estimate higher just in case im slightly less active than I think or Yk how calorie labels lie and stuff!
161 cals today
-512 net calories
Im rlly playing the long game I might be miserable now but when im truly skinny I will realize all these days of being exhausted are worth it!