@jeremyct You can pay more balance if you want.
This isn’t nefarious or manipulative. You are simply paying interest on your loan amount. The schedule is set up so you pay it all off with a constant payment in 30 years.
I am trying so hard to not miss her and mourn and accept forever, permanent loss.
But occasionally, late at night, I feel so deeply that I don’t want to never see or speak to her again.
I hate it. Then I hate myself.
Once upon a time I asked my friends to help me move. Only one person showed up.
Another time I arranged dinner together at a restaurant. They all showed up together an hour late.
The last time I invited them to my house. No one had showed 45 minutes after the appointed time.
I got an invitation to go out from a friend not in that group. He convinced me to just go. So I did.
They showed up some time later and broke into my house and sat in my living room wondering where I was.
It was a terrible friend group.
I think his sister keeps showing up in my suggested friends. You don’t have to spy on me or get other people to do so. You can talk to me directly if you want. I’m friendly. But I’m not going to reach out first.
An old Ukrainian man hit my car while I was sitting in my parked car in the Costco parking lot today and then claimed he didn’t speak English and walked away. I had to call the police. He left before they arrived.
I had dreams last night that I was no longer facebook friends with my ex and I was all distressed about it. Which is weird because we were never facebook friends.