antae

just my thoughts i cannot speak at loud, trying not to go crazy

sw:102.3

cw:99.5🫩

gw:85 gw1:70 gw2:60 ✨gw3:48✨

[antae @vanspotae]

the only reason i love tuesdays is that i have free fruits at work 😼

[antae @vanspotae]

@vireloooo im sorry that's sucks, but same here like one maybe two months ago this happened to me and still fighting with that shit i even changing pillowcase every two days to make sure and still didn't find the impostor 👩‍🦯‍➡️👩‍🦯‍➡️

[antae @vanspotae]

so to make sure to make steps today i'll get off the train one stop earlier 🫩🫩

[antae @vanspotae]

@popiuszki kurde to chyba jutro się treatne i spróbuję bo dziś musi wejść dzik jest ciężko

[antae @vanspotae]

i forgot that i have period in few days so i need to avoid the scale because when i see a little gaining i would kms

[antae @vanspotae]

the worst part of coming back to this is the fact i'm isolating once again bc i know my friends will be worried, somehow disappointed and i don't want to hurt any of them

[antae @vanspotae]

@popiuszki a ten air jak smakuje.... bo ciągle mijam go na półkach i debatuje czy w ovole warto próbować

[antae @vanspotae]

i hate working out idk how people manage to like it

[antae @vanspotae]

@friedoreosl morning!!!

[antae @vanspotae]

i just stand on the scale bc i was walking around house aimlessly and i saw another -0.5kg august will be an amazing month 😋

[antae @vanspotae]

it's already 7pm and i have maybe 2k steps time to lock in 🫩

[antae @vanspotae]

whoever thought about doing mountain dew zero THANK U

[antae @vanspotae]

@popiuszki dziękuję pięknie 😋

[antae @vanspotae]

HELL YWAH 9 IN FRONT

[antae @vanspotae]

worse if I think wrong the i guess there will be a problem

[antae @vanspotae]

i do really think that if i get skinny i can finally be happy

[antae @vanspotae]

it's like 4 am and im going mental again 👩‍🦯‍➡️

[antae @vanspotae]

and so on for a good 12 years xdd and somehow my parents still asking me why am i depressed and want to kms like i never lived a day in peace far away from every destructive thought

[antae @vanspotae]

the worst part of being fat is everyone judging me by food and assume i'm eating so much meanwhile i cannot even look at food xdddd every single thing that lands on my plate making me question is it worth it even if i had to because of meds

[antae @vanspotae]

literally when i'm going to the store i'm stressed to pick up the any type of food because in my head i see how people judging me and think instead of here i should be at the gym