Kris

Venting (with lots of typos) - autistic anorexic - 28 - relapsed - current bmi low 14s

[Kris @ventingmind1]

Heart palpitations at night are the worst like I do want to wake up tomorrow :( all I did was go for a longer walk today

[Kris @ventingmind1]

@dinocoffeequeen YOU’RE ABSOLUTELY STUNNING

[Kris @ventingmind1]

Not even full recovery though because preworkout is a rice cake and breakfast is at 11am

[Kris @ventingmind1]

“Wieiad as a girl in HA recovery trying to heal their relationship with food” is basically “Im in recovery from restrictive ed and I gym now”

[Kris @ventingmind1]

“Eat with me as I challenge a fear food” and it’s a food that you eat regularly while having an active restrictive ED 💀

[Kris @ventingmind1]

I hate fear food challenges in TikTok because I’m not in recovery, I’m excited about eating an Oreo ice cream and I’m still anorexic

[Kris @ventingmind1]

IM TRYING AN OREO ICE CREAM SANDWICH TODAY!!!

[Kris @ventingmind1]

@losing_lacy Like I don’t think it’s worth spending so much on a new wardrobe cause nothing I try on looks good anyway 😭

[Kris @ventingmind1]

@losing_lacy Literally nothing looks good on me everything drapes awkwardly 😭 plus I’m so scared of buying new clothes in case I gain at some point so I only do 2nd hand jeans

[Kris @ventingmind1]

I feel bad that I’m not in full in recovery yet I go to anorexic and bulimics anonymous meetings every week

[Kris @ventingmind1]

Anyway inpatient might not work out for me so my goal is to get to bmi 13.5

[Kris @ventingmind1]

@losing_lacy Please go easy on yourself today :(

[Kris @ventingmind1]

Opening TikTok and the second video is someone hospitalised for their ed like bmi 10

[Kris @ventingmind1]

@cassliesh Same :(

[Kris @ventingmind1]

Inpatient might not happen :( I might not be able to get 6weeks off from work

[Kris @ventingmind1]

Lowkey fearing recovery extreme hunger because I’m already extremely hungry

[Ethan @EllyIsPurging]

"Where did 2021 edtwt go" the cemetery bruh

[Kris @ventingmind1]

1200 can’t be my maintenance surely but I haven’t been able to lose anything 😭

[Kris @ventingmind1]

Going to bed early because I can’t wait to eat breakfast again

[momo 🐚 @cruelersoft]

if having an eating disorder meant that all I cared about was losing weight, it would be significantly easier to deal with

an ed is psychological torture at best and a cycle of self-loathing masked as anything from self-improvement/laziness to the public eye at worst