like is this a dick move posting these things no sympathy thts not wat I want or need but like..:idk acknowledgement that im like not okay at all like why wont I cry please let the waterworks work!
igh i feel like such a cunt talking and feeling and posting but I js keep telling myself this ismy diary tht the public has access too but I need to do something so I can feel something anything olease
about to have an episode all over the socials medias like I think I need to break really really bad so I can start to fix I WANT TO RELAPSE ON ALLL MY HORRIBLE COPPING MECHANISMS
slice sliceeeee aniff snifff scratch scratch walls wallsss ghostttinggg numbing cream isolaaaationnn!
my father is dead and I dont really know how to process it like no sad shit like not tryna make anyone uncomfortable but I dont know how I feel anymore I want to mourn so fucking bad my brother my father at this point gahdamn whose next please be me, my father