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i tweet when i feel things • she/her • 24

[h⋆ @verwustet]

why was this hook up not as fulfilling? cause i never felt more in control so it didn't feel like self harm

and that's why i should probably talk about this stuff in therapy

[h⋆ @verwustet]

mom got home and saw my knife under my pillow and i had to make some bulshit excuse about cleaning my bad and it ending up there and i think she only bought it cause she thinks ive been clean for YEARS

[h⋆ @verwustet]

i was looking for my blade and then my cat came into my room and just sat there staring at me, truly my anti suicide cat

[h⋆ @verwustet]

idk if i can laugh about this one noah kahan

[h⋆ @verwustet]

trying to figure out if i should blame the legal or illegal drugs for my cognitive decline

[Witch @witchwounds]

im lowkey a perpetrator of the cycle

[h⋆ @verwustet]

trying not to kns tonight cause i have a psych appointment tomorrow and three exams next week but i fucked up so bad already this month

[h⋆ @verwustet]

being a pharm major, mentally ill and passively suicidal is not a great combo cause i not only have the drugs at my disposal but also know how much to take of them and how to get the info to confirm

[mishaa (⁠╥⁠﹏⁠╥⁠)-☆ @moonlightt_135]

as first and last act of self-love i'm killing myself

[🤠 @heavensbvnny]

WHY AM I SO FAR BEHIND EVERYONE MY AGE WHY IS IT SO HARD FOR ME TO DO THE SAME THINGS AS EVERYONE ELSE WHY CANT I JUST BE NORMAL AND NOT STRUGGLE OR BE SCARED OF EVERYTHING

[kage @sukikage_]

Nothing hurts more than seeing yourself again in the same situation after getting better for a while.

[JΛCΞ @jaceels2]

it sucks because for a minute i was happy, for a minute i was getting better, for a minute i had hope, but in a minute i lost it all again

[𓈒ֺ𓏼ྀིᚐ . ݁ 𝓜iles𓈒 . ݁ ⟡ ྀི @menherakkei]

how it genuinely feels to not be able to relapse

[h⋆ @verwustet]

oh ok got it

[h⋆ @verwustet]

i miss you everyday and i don't know how to tell my mom we're not friends anymore

[ᓚᘏᗢ @rottengrl4u]

would you finally realize how much you hurt me if i died?

[h⋆ @verwustet]

do you miss me at all?