once when I was like 6, I was so sick at school and when everyone realized I was sick, they were so caring and nice
I’ve been chasing that high ever since
And high key I just wanna cry or sing cry about it but I don’t know any music that is this exact feeling lol idk what set of words to google that will give me exactly what I need ugh
I feel like I’ve dissected myself to the point of being unrecognizable and theres no box to look at while I put myself back together and honestly I don’t want to be the person I was anyway but even if I did I don’t know how to be that anymore??
It feels like I’m an actress trying to play my part but I’m a shit actress actually. It’s totally unnatural and that’s bc the old me wasn’t thinking much!! I was just existing without putting too much thought into it and ugh even the parts I did like I can’t seem to be anymore
Just had a breakdown on my 50 fucking minute commute home, never in my life have I sobbed so hard my tongue and fingers were going numb and as I was getting closer to my house I had a realization that I can’t even cry in peace cause I’m about to pass the flock camera near my home