chaand 𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪

[chaand 𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪 @vibettaa]

🃏 — my thread of threads ‧ ︵‿₊୨୧₊‿︵ ‧ ˚ ₊

[chaand 𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪 @vibettaa]

Suddenly have the energy and motivation to be outside again but I’m physically not capable

[chaand 𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪 @vibettaa]

@reignneez Inna Lillahi wa inna ilayhi raji'un. I’m so sorry my love this is an unfathomable loss. May Allah give him the highest rank of Jannah, and provide you and your family with sabr to get through this time. Always here if you need me. I’m so sorry

[౨ৎ @cokeframboise]

here’s another before/after in the same outfit
🦢

[chaand 𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪 @vibettaa]

@berryspacexx Sooo cute omg I love this for u

[chaand 𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪 @vibettaa]

I actually feel
Happy

[chaand 𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪 @vibettaa]

Just want my baby here now:(
Because i can’t wait to meet him
But also kinda bc it means I can get started w my WL journey again lol

These 4 weeks are going to absolutely drag

[chaand 𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪 @vibettaa]

I didn’t even get to memorise my new body. I have to look back on the pictures all the time because I didn’t relish in it enough. After marriage that body lasted for MAYBE 2 months before pregnancy started taking over

[chaand 𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪 @vibettaa]

I think the worst part of this is that I didn’t even get to enjoy my weight loss. I had a new LW after years of being fat. I was so small and beautiful. And then I got pregnant immediately after my marriage. I had so many suits I didn’t get to wear.

[chaand 𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪 @vibettaa]

This is all so scary. I hate this

[chaand 𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪 @vibettaa]

I just can’t wait to get skinny again. I feel these really toxic urges slowly escaping me. I’m scared I’m gonna fail to prioritise my baby over my own selfish needs. Either that or I’m gonna go crazy with exercise which isn’t any better bc it’ll mean I’ll have to stay out w him

[chaand 𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪 @vibettaa]

If I just don’t eat enough I’m scared I won’t produce enough milk for him and I want to BF. I’ll feel guilty if I have to formula feed. There’s no fucking winning. I can’t use MJ again until he stops BF. I can’t be selfish. I can’t NOT prioritise him. Idont think I’m ready

[chaand 𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪 @vibettaa]

I mean I kind of get it bc when I got married I was rlly skinny and obvs short so I just looked tiny compared to everyone in my husbands family and now I’m just huge bc my bump is like 70% of my body. It is a big difference but they don’t need to point it out like wtf

[chaand 𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪 @vibettaa]

This has been the first and only comment about my physical appearance my entire pregnancy and wow does it actually SHATTER your confidence when someone comments on your pregnant body

[chaand 𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪 @vibettaa]

my husbands auntie came over the other day and I haven’t seen her in like 4/5 months and she goes “wow you look so different” “you just look short and chubby”
…
I’m fkn 8 months pregnant like why would u say this to me. My thoughts have gotten so much worse after that comment

[chaand 𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪 @vibettaa]

my husbands auntie came over the other day and I haven’t seen her in like 4/5 months and she goes “wow you look so different” “you just look short and chubby”
…
I’m fkn 8 months pregnant like why would u say this to me. My thoughts have gotten so much worse after that comment

[chaand 𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪 @vibettaa]

I cannot stop thinking about how much weigh I just can’t. I feel like I have been grieving my old body and weight loss for almost 9 months straight

[chaand 𓆩ꨄ︎𓆪 @vibettaa]

I just want my baby to be here already