just putting it here because i was so stressed about it yesterday
i know that i will regret if i don't get a camera and its so much scary too because im not someone who thought i will want to put out videos - i do love to take good pictures and videos but now im just so scared of a lot of things - like im not sure how to record myself or what to speak or even how to edit them.
i do have friends to help on all these but again i don't want to be dependent because i have seen the pattern of things getting delayed.
but the sense of regret will be so much higher is what i feel now. my hands were shaking.
i hate putting myself into terrible situations but that's how you grow.
i will figure it out and things will change.
everything will be better.
i was so scared to order it yesterday (11.12.2026)
just because im not used to this.
whatever, let's go bitch❤️