The more intelligent you are, the less you need cunning or deception to get what you want. Manipulation, scheming and deception are almost always a workaround for someone who lacks the actual ability to win straightforwardly. The smartest people you know are usually the most direct. It is the lesser minds who have to compensate with games.
somewhere in your 20s or 30s you’ll get the opportunity to rebuild your life after a negative loop. its very important that you see that journey through