Defensiveness, refusing to take blame, and feeling the need to win are often mistaken as a sign of someone’s strength.
It’s nearly always the opposite - a sign of vulnerability, an attempt to protect a fragile ego and the result of emotional insecurity.
You wouldn't plant a seed and then dig it up every few minutes to see if it has grown.
So why do you keep questioning yourself, your hard work and your decisions?
Have patience,
stop overthinking and keep watering your seeds.