Trying to find out of print books is tourture hellfire pee on my stab wound piane. Haveta go to library, cus I guess every copy is locked behind a university
Did I draw this? Yes and it totally poop so I will probably redraw and post it then. For now. Imagine my vision. I also have a whole comic about this but I kinda hate it now cuz medkit is ooc. (He’s kinda more of a asshole)(for conflict reasons but I can write it better)
It’s confirmed medkit can’t heal injuries inflicted by deities and since then I’ve had an angst vision where sword is passed out via deity injury and medkit is wrapped around him.
I really want more writeing where medkit is very punitive. he may not actively seek suffering but he believes he has no right to prioritize himself* anymore. Learned helplessness dog diagram here.
*when I say himself I mean HIMSELF I believe medkit probably has not realized he is like this because he is a support gear that should prioritize saving himself for the greater good ( ya know what I mean) and he does do that but not for himself but for what he can do for other-
Maybe being someone's “pet” isn't something he sees as losing his freedom. Maybe it's a way of giving up the burden of having it. Or maybe he’s just fucking lying and aura farming and planing the kill the true eye idfk.
Inphernals compare medkit to a tamed animal and that Medkit probably doesn’t mind this. His only real act of rebellion was escaping Blackrock, and that decision killed subspace and prolly his friends, whatever freedom he gained was permanently tied to the guilt of what happened.
Would be interesting if Medkit's greatest act of rebellion left him wanting to never rebel again. He fought to escape being controlled, only to discover that freedom came with a responsibility he wasn't prepared to carry.