Cha

what brings you here?

[Cha @vrgoarc]

my 1 am thought: i'm not closing the door, but i'm not knocking on it either

[Cha @vrgoarc]

what's the point?

[Cha @vrgoarc]

currently where i feel most at peace

[Cha @vrgoarc]

a solid 10 hours of sleep

[Cha @vrgoarc]

i came twice, that should be enough para antukin lol

[Cha @vrgoarc]

maling desisyon na nag kape after 10 pm

[Cha @vrgoarc]

ayoko na, pagod na ata ako

[Cha @vrgoarc]

doing everything you asked me to do, even if it makes me look desperate. but it feels like still wasn't enough

[Cha @vrgoarc]

puro na lang headache, wala ng hardfuck

[Cha @vrgoarc]

bet on yourself, cha. let them think they’re playing you while you’re ten steps ahead, unbothered, and quietly letting them expose themselves

[Cha @vrgoarc]

it’s weird how there’s nothing that excites me anymore. things that used to make me happy or give me something to look forward to just don’t feel the same now. i’m not necessarily sad. I just feel strangely indifferent

[Cha @vrgoarc]

sometimes, i'd rather let you keep your version of the truth while i quietly adjust my place in your life. because at this point, i’m not trying to prove that i’m right. i just want to protect whatever peace I have left

[Cha @vrgoarc]

ang lala ng trust issues ko lately. to the point na kahit gaano pa ako ka-self-aware, kapag may sinasabi sila sa akin, nag-o “oo” na lang ako. not because i believe them, but because i already know when something doesn’t feel true

[Cha @vrgoarc]

maybe this is what protecting my peace looks like now. choosing silence over confrontation, acceptance over arguments, and distance over forcing people to be honest with me. i may know when you’re lying, but don’t always need to expose