i think being embarrassed by how you truly feel is the thing that stops you from connecting with others. as someone who was once traumatized by opening up, i'd still choose it all over again, because through that, i know people like me exist & i’m not alone in this feeling.
ever since i was little people were always really mean to me and then super nice to me later like nothing ever happened, and it was a repeated cycle. maybe that’s why i am the way i am