someone said, "I miss the innocence of loving someone without the constant fear" and that just really hit me deep fr... the first time you loved someone, you loved fully and wholeheartedly, you opened yourself up, you loved with everything in you expecting the best and now.....
New plan: Find a Husband.
Then together: Start a vegetable garden. Cook good foods. Smoke meats. Build a chicken coop. Plant fruit trees. Make jam. Bake sourdough. Brew kombucha. Play music. Woodshop in the garage. Go camping. Paint the walls. Read books. Take a nap. Make love.
“never quit” sounds great, but sometimes, you gotta quit. be willing to say, “this isn’t what i thought it was,” or “this doesn’t appeal to me anymore.” remember that you can quit “the thing” without quitting on yourself. remember that persistence and fluidity can coexist.