knowing that you have no one is so heartbreaking. my parents are both sick and don’t have that long to live and once they’re gone i have no one. yeah i have friends but a lot of them are online. it’s so hard to make friends in real life that support you, care for you, push you to do better and you actually get along with. everyone has different morals, goals and mindsets so it’s hard to find someone you see eye to eye with. i don’t like going to clubs or drinking, every time i do that i just feel like shit after, there’s nothing wrong with drinking but i come from a family that’s struggled with addiction, and i already was addicted to alcohol so thats why i try my hardest to avoid it but its so hard when thats the only thing people want to do nowadays. i’m tired of doing things alone, i hate knowing that the only person i’ll ever have is myself and it’ll always just be me until i die. i’ve tried everything to make myself happy but i never succeed.