I feel quite high in this fresher nutmeg in contrast to the powder an' old nutmegs - my rule is never more than 1 for a low tox approach as higher doses lead to atrocities an' shi
I don't wanna drink but like it feels weird havin' to work out what to drink low cal an' different all over again idk. But am reasonably balanced I think for BMR nutritional value wise so I should focus on that, rebuild an' lose the alc gut
My mind is a pendulum between wantin' each addiction but the stuff I can access either will cause weight gain or cuttin' them out forever to satisfy consistent weight loss. One part would love a strong drink or lots of anythin' available, the other wants to ingest nutmeg n' ⭐ve
@deadbeatrag Yh wait times are insane. Emergency room wait time 'ere is 8-10 hours unless actively visibly dyin'/visible head injury. It doesn't even feel worth waitin' for these days 🙄
@deadbeatrag Well it seems to be where am from as NHS has next to no fundin' etc so they desperate an' we practically have to fund them through prescriptions an' stuff it feels like
@deadbeatrag Think the point is to cause ailment atp purely so they can sell another fix lol - ppl only seem to care abt money in a capitalistic world but they ain't gonna make as much as if they did by focusin' on accessible an' safe treatments that will actually help
I rlly jus' got told off for SLEEPING after only gerrin' 16 hours ALL FUCKING LAST WEEK huh 😭
Bro am still not right after that an' tryna catch up but ig amma let mesen go into acute psychosis if I canny sleep without bein' made literally from prouda mesen to suicidal in a text
@deadbeatrag Haha I see yer a fellow of culture also 😂
Yh there's a few spices but nutmeg is quite potent for what it is in contrast to other accessible shite where am from lol. Ad say most things I do is best to stray away from to b extra safe - am probably dyin' physically inside atp
My irl bsf accidentally gave me a solid excuse as to y my eyes r so red today (nutmeg issues, but hayfever alongside it so can jus' say hayfever if am seen without my shades on) fuck yeah
@deadbeatrag Double edge sword ahh moment - think am gna try ownin' it
Idk if it's normal for it to do that tbh - I jus' took it to somewhat dissociate away from what I thought were gonna be horrendous symptoms then realised it was a CNS depressant
Ad defo not do it if yer prone to addiction