wandering star

not talking about anyone specific, I'm real in my own universe

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no hope left for me

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i've been awake for over 23 hours straight, without a single nap

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I apologize deeply to everyone I've distanced myself from, whether by choice or circumstance

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It sucks not being able to do anything about it, having no choice, not feeling safe anywhere

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https://t.co/WruZby5CAO

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I've been thinking a lot about how much I've been valuing my life lately

Every now and then I think, 'what if I died right now?' And don't take this as a threat, but I've never felt so 'not reluctant' about the idea

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every 15 mins, my brain flips a coin

heads for anxiety and tails for depression

if it lands on its side it’s a panic attack

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gonna assume I slept well cause I’m taking my meds properly

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amazing how unperceptive I’m

don’t know if I slept well or not, didn’t wear my fitness bracelet so can’t really tell how many hours I slept

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Not like I’ve got nothing to say, though

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Haven’t had a long chat with anyone in a while, just been talking to my angel all week

Scrolled through my WhatsApp and it’s all small talk or work stuff

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Got a new ring with my angel today, I’ve lost so much weight that I had to keep my ring on my thumb so it wouldn’t slip off

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Feels like the world’s testing me, any moment a monster with a health bar will appear on my bedroom floor

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Having hot chocolate made with almond milk, how is it possible an animal with such small tits

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Empathy without boundaries is self-destruction

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For me, forgetting my dreams works like a defense mechanism, gotta keep only real memories in my head

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Ever been freaked out realizing how dream memories can feel like real ones?

Ever struggled to figure out if a memory was a dream or actually happened?

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Always tough passing by that station, grew up around there, had so much time to think while waiting for the subway…