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Do you know anne with an e? I’m the same fuckin person with the same fuckin problems with people around me, Except that I didn’t find who can accept that, Except that she wasn’t that dark as me

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ورد حزينة

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If I wanna adapt I need to stop being ward, and Idk how to stop being ward. She is too much for almost everything and everyone. Too much in the bad way. Doesn’t that also mean death if stopped being myself?

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I’m not complaining tho, Loneliness and solitude both have been my home for too long, They are my best friends, Friends I’m not afraid of like I used to be, but Ik there’s more than that and I wish I can taste what real connection is before I die.

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I wanna make real connections with people, solitude is comfy but Ik there’s treasures i wanna discover in people I don’t know yet

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Is that too much to search for? I wanna trust someone who will be worthy of my trust, I don’t wanna be disappointed again, I wanna be seen, heard, felt and loved properly. There’s a ton of people around me with something missing in everyone, Is it hard to get all in one person?

[سُميّة @iamsomyaah]

الدنيا بتزعلك مرتين..
مرة لما تديك أمل بعد ما عجنتك لأيام وممكن لشهور
ومرة لما تسحبه منك وترميك في أي ركن مستني أمل جديد.")

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حرفيا أنا

[Arab Memes @arabmemesss]

عملت ايه

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أتمنى أي شئ عملته و بعمله يندرج تحت مسمى 'الخير' يساعدني اتخلص من كل ذنوبي الي عملتها و الي هعملها، أنا إنسان و بغلط و بقصر في حقك كتير يارب، أتمنى لو حاجة واحدة بس هتشفعلي عندك فهي إني مبنامش وأنا ف قلبي غل و لا حقد و لا كراهية تجاه حد، قلبي خفيف مش بيشيل غير حب وأتمنى يفضل كدا.

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الإحساس بالذنب الغير مبرر

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They end up hurting me.
We made a decision, ward. Don’t get close, you will be disappointed again

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I hate it when I have hope again that I can give people the best parts of me without them hurting me

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Long time ago I was trying to fix people’s lifes too, I couldn’t. You can’t fix someone who doesn’t wanna be fixed. But you can point to the problems and ideas to solve that. Also, you can love them. Even from millions miles away.

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I find myself when I’m feeding stary animals.
I don’t post much about that but I’m happy I fed 9 dogs today and that’s a big number for me.
Maybe I won’t meet them again but I know allah will always take care of them.

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Last session I asked my therapist: someone told me ‘ I only feel empathy for animals not for humans’
Does this mean I’m faking my emotions? He told me that people who fake their feelings don’t question themselves. There’s nothing wrong of being kind hearted y ward.