my desires have gotten simpler again. I want to wake up with a big gash across my thigh and some of my shirts tied around it to close it and have no idea how either got there
when that throat infection put me in the hospital and I had to explain my bruises and the potentially relevant factors of strangulation/electrocution/toy impact, the responses ranged from "I see" to "my roommate's a masochist, I get it" to "yeah, I go to those play parties too"
I often see people nervous about talking about their kink activities with medical professionals, but ime the factor of "making it easier to do their job by being honest" is the only thing they really care about. as far as shock value they've seen/heard plenty worse
being in the PNW probably makes things a little smoother, but...I've mentioned asking my PCP about my urophagy/coprophagy and not even getting a "don't do that". the details of my ageplay often come up with my therapist, and they barely blink, much less treat it as a problem
I appreciate the idea of body marking as a record of people that mean enough to you to want to show their impact Physically, and the trust and intimacy of being personally scarred by them rather than having a third party apply a tattoo feels like a natural fit for that goal...
it's healing up nicely - I like how you can see the darker stroke where my scene partner got most bloodthirsty -w-
I'm grateful for these scars as something that in both design and medium simultaneously represents me, them, and the nature of our relationship.
this would probably require very heavy bondage to pull off, though - less so because I'd get scared and do something drastic to avoid it and more so because I'd get too excited that someone was giving me permission to rest and might accidentally make it happen for real
I've done a fair bit of the "be '''convinced''' I'm being murdered by a friend by way of suspension of disbelief heavily strengthened by assorted substances" but I'd like to take those caveats off sometime