Weebtrash02

22
I love overwatch and dbd
They/she
Just a broke trans girl

[Weebtrash02 @weebtrash02]

I feel as if my life will always be a bit isolated that I really shouldn't be happy that at some point it there a point in trying.

[Weebtrash02 @weebtrash02]

My head hasn't been clear headed I just end up making bad choices now I don't know what to do.Even then do I deserve to feel any happiness everytime I do it feels wrong.

[Weebtrash02 @weebtrash02]

It feels as if I fumbled a good friendship why did I do that I hate this feeling. This whole month didn't feel real my brain felt so scattered then she talks to me and it doesn't feel as scattered but now I feel heat I have been doing this whole month.

[Weebtrash02 @weebtrash02]

@eviesaysthings Walking is great I personally like to box or go for a jog gets the blood flowing so I'm less brain foggy than normal

[Weebtrash02 @weebtrash02]

I can't wait for gorr the god butcher please let me play as my husband he is so hot lowkey. I want to be a lord gorr player I don't care if I have the game for 8 hours straight just to be good I don't need food I will play for 8 hours.

[Weebtrash02 @weebtrash02]

I would get some meds and be able to talk about it but would it fix anything or will I end up where I always end up. I have been trying to make friends talking in more servers and stuff.I have no reason to stay alive feels like only by willpower do I get through the day.

[Weebtrash02 @weebtrash02]

I feel more calmer but at the same time I don't think I'm like living past 24 or 25 I just don't see a point. I don't see a life where I have friends where I have a family or a support system.If I ever got the chance to go to therapy would there be a point.

[Weebtrash02 @weebtrash02]

I realized I am a cat girl I had fun playing with a cat toy for 10 minutes makes me want a bigger rat plushie.I was less depressed when doing it but then I realized how alone I really am.

[Weebtrash02 @weebtrash02]

I just realized I have good news with no one to share it with that's a bit sad.I finish watching all 743 videos for my manager stuff now I just gotta past my test and get my certificate then I get the pay raise and promotion.

[Weebtrash02 @weebtrash02]

Honestly reading chainsaw man made me a bit sad made me wish I had a fond family all I have is my cats I feel like. I just want attention I just want to matter to someone to know my life has some kind of value.

[Weebtrash02 @weebtrash02]

I finished reading chainsaw man part 1 it was so sad I almost started crying cause why did that have to happen. Now for my mental i feel empty alot more like it wasn't perfect and abusive but least the person last month would tell me good job and stuff.

[Weebtrash02 @weebtrash02]

@mouse_acid Happy birthday

[Weebtrash02 @weebtrash02]

I miss having a family living with my younger siblings cause taking care of others people is all I know how to do.I can't take care of myself cause it feels pointless only time I do is when someone I like like is coming over do I care enough.

[Weebtrash02 @weebtrash02]

I feel so alone what's the point of taking care of myself I don't even like myself.I go to the gym and stuff but then I come home and see how empty it feels.Feels like too much to ask someone for comfort cause why waste someone's time.

[Weebtrash02 @weebtrash02]

Almost September and I feel like I'm being punished by this that once the bad stuff is over with I should feel better things should get better. It doesn't look like it will get better that I will just get more and more depressed until I can't take it anymore.

[Weebtrash02 @weebtrash02]

I feel like I'm the one being punished I'm the one left with no one to lean on. Like always it feels like I'm on my own I want to give up i don't see a point. I can do anything but what's the point.

[Weebtrash02 @weebtrash02]

@transgenderweed Same honestly I can barely focus on anything

[Weebtrash02 @weebtrash02]

@transgenderweed Same I wish insurance was easier to get but nah I am sorry to hear this *hugs*

[Weebtrash02 @weebtrash02]

I feel so pathetic most of the time like damn so many goals to do but what's the point of that promotion or achieving anything.I can barely take care of myself least I got a cut water to help feel better.

[Weebtrash02 @weebtrash02]

Just one of those days you wake up nihilistic and dysphoric what's the point of it.Least overwatch update so can distract myself with that and some reading before I fall behind.