Second Trombone Memphis Symphony|Spartanburg Philharmonic|Flat Rock Playhouse|past Principal Trombone Mississippi|Baton Rouge|Aka the transient trombonist.
That moment while showering and have all the shampoo on your head and then you start ugly crying in the shower and you then have all the shampoo in your eyes. At least i have clean eyes now.
Apologies. I feel such deep sadness these days. If things seem off, it's not you at all. Just wrestling with my own problems. Love you all greatly and wish that i could send only light into the world. โค
Nothing like a therapy session to bring you back down to earth. Walk in there today like "yeah I'm good. Feelin healed and I got this." leave therapy and I'm like "who am I, and wtf is my life."
Tonight I performed Tchaik 6 with the Jackson Symphony in TN. It was one of the most powerful musical experiences I've encountered. Sitting in our audience tonight was a man who is dying of stage 4 cancer. I lost my shit. #cancersucks#CancerResearch#FindACure
@mccaintrombone I'm learning to acknowledge these people and move on. I used to get tied into knots agonizing over the situation and accepted all the blame in addition to that for which I was responsible. No more. Man ready for cigar hangs again!
One thing I've noticed in life is that some people prefer dysfunctional existence over normal functioning relationships or environments. It seems that this allows them to play the victim & shift their responsibilities & blame onto others. They also prefer fragmented communication
Hereโs things that realllllly donโt work.
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Grudges
Ego
Insecurity
Pettiness
An inability to focus on what matters
An inability to forgive
Playing politics for your own advancement
Lack of humility
Yesterday was the conclusion of 1,477 miles driven, 2 concerts, 1 rehearsal, 1 masterclass given at WCU, 1 trombone choir coaching, and 1 professional development meeting in 3 days. Today I shall relax, ride my bike, go to the farmers market, & watch baseball. Warm up only today.
Been trying to trim down video footage of several performances but every option requires new operating systems or versions that I don't have making me feel personally obsolete. Aging in the music business is hard. Finally feeling old and tired of the struggle.
What an honor is has been to visit ULM! Wonderful students who are obviously being very well guided by Dr. Jeremy Marks and Professor Tracy Bedgood! Heard some wonderful music from these young people! Feeling inspired!
It was great to visit The Hart School of Music in Connecticut yesterday and hear Haim Avitsur's wonderful students! It was great fun! I also ate some really great pizza after the masterclass.
MSO Big Band is Back! Symphony in the Gardens, Sunday May 13th, 5pm. It's the perfect Mother's Day event! Get a group together, there are still VIP tables available! Get your tickets today! https://t.co/DO4tFAU6ET