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[🙁 @whatrwesh]

i dont date anyone .. m waiting for him

[🙁 @whatrwesh]

tinder sucks

[joe @joelxver]

Violet was so revolutionary that seasons later, they created a runway category inspired by her reveal.

[🙁 @whatrwesh]

nd this time he was listening to me sharing stuff abt my future nd my past too .. he was focused on me .. so yas i was happy seeing that .. i love him

[🙁 @whatrwesh]

so we talked as usual .. fun / deep convo / silly / we watched all stars season 4 (we ar in ep 2) and m excited for his bday partyy yas .. we talked abt it

[🙁 @whatrwesh]

i always find myself writing here when m sad or upset .. so tday m gonna share smthng cute

[⚡🕷 .ᐟ @thelizzieaholic]

And a huge shout out to the writers because this was beautiful and perfect.

[🙁 @whatrwesh]

i wanna throw up .. m energy is gone .. i cant hold my phone .. i hate this feeling

[🙁 @whatrwesh]

its like i can stop that .. i can just move on .. but i feel so weak

[🙁 @whatrwesh]

i hate that .. i need help actually .. i dont wanna destroy my life or my peace .. i hate being in love .. or in love with my bestie .. like he telling me he is hving a hookup nd excited nd m here crying .. tf

[🙁 @whatrwesh]

do i think that we ar better as lovers ? yas sure .. but the other half isnt comfy with the idea or lets say its a no for him … i cant force it ( iwsh i could)

[🙁 @whatrwesh]

m not tired now .. we had a talk yesterday.. like a 4am talk .. nd he said it .. yas he did .. "m not dating my best friend " .. idk how i feel abt that m lost but i respect that he has his own beliefs nd so do i

[🙁 @whatrwesh]

idk tired …

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he wouldnt tell me stuff until i ask .. idk how i feel about that

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i met him today .. i was there for him .. mix emotions tho .. idk if m close close or m just there .. but we ar cool so idc .. love him so much

[🙁 @whatrwesh]

we ar talking again we are cool … he is stable..

[🙁 @whatrwesh]

okay m gonna go and apologize to him now he will talk to me when he feel its the right time

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everytime he says "i wanna disappear for good .. none will hear from me again " when he is upset mn situation with his bf .. nd i try to calm him down.. m like wait does that mean he doesn’t care abt me .. or like m not worth living for .. like m his bestie god

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for the record i dont want an apology ik he is feeling typa way .. omg more excuses for him .. my bestie wsh ndir i love that bitch i want him to be happy ..

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my head is hurting .. nd i can feel that he doesnt cares at all .. well not like HE DOESNT care .. but no efforts .. he is in his world IDK IDK .. idk ida ni nzid elih .. should i be silent myb he will notice .. should i be more talkative myb he will notice IDDKKK