God will literally sit you down and break you to humble you, then will isolate you to build you. Then give you back everything 10x to prove to you Heโs real and everything is for a reason. Keep your trust in Him.
Fast forward to my early adult years. I was married, so I thought I was loved. But sadly colors show and I got told some things, and learned I was being loved for me, but simply my occupation.
I think the first time I realized i wasnโt meant to be loved was early highschool. This boy had a crush on me(I didnโt like him back clearly), and his little sister said โbut youโre black heโll never like youโ by just being brown I wasnโt able to be loved.
my trauma didn't make me strong. it turned me into someone who's always paranoid, anxious, and doesn't know how to properly relax without feeling guilty