You're doing everything right. You're loving yourself more, increasing your gratitude, and restoring your faith. Don't let your mind convince you otherwise. You're inside the blessing. Ground your current energy so deeply that your past self has no other option but to walk away.
One of the best things to do when you need to rant or pour out your heart is to just lay it all at God’s feet. God listens. Angry, sad, disappointed, worried, or anxious, just tell your feelings to God. The Holy Spirit is a great listener, adviser, and comforter.