mercury

all the girls could never make me love them the way i love you
13 y/o intp

[mercury @why_mercury]

♫ - day 1 of #moothunt - ♪
mercury ⟡ 13 ⟡ basic dni
ana-r ⟡ cbmi 17s ⟡ ugbmi low-mid 15s

---> i try to be interactive
-------> [#edrtwt]
---------> ♡ / ↻ for moots

[jay ☆ @calwhoric]

do you ever just realise how genuinely miserable your life is bc it all revolves around these stupid numbers

[mercury @why_mercury]

is it sh if its just doing things to make yourself feel kinda sick (ex drinking multiple energy drinks), no, right?

[mercury @why_mercury]

@letyoulie i wouldnt be no

[mercury @why_mercury]

@letyoulie im always fixated on food when im fasting (even if its intermittent) so mukbangs help me ease that

[mercury @why_mercury]

@withany_luck my parents are both catching on that ive relapsed so im trying to think of another excuse for it
but youre right, my dad bought me a big ass cookie yesterday so ill probably just say i ate it for breakfast and im not hungry ty!!

[mercury @why_mercury]

can someone please give me excuses not to eat asap?? im going out to a restaurant with family and i want something that'll be a valid reason with little to no questions asked, im thinking about just blaming my anxiety

[mercury @why_mercury]

im starting to find comfort in restricting and i dont like it, after eating maintenance for 2 days suddenly i have the energy to sit and cry like crazy and food isnt so exciting i feel so awful i havent felt this bad in a year

[mercury @why_mercury]

hold on this might be the strat... bmi 16s by the 13th, bmi 15s by the 27th, and bmi 14s by the 11th??

[mercury @why_mercury]

@Junehasbugs im sort of into punk? i love bands like sonic youth & the velvet underground (technically proto punk i believe?).. i also love interpol who i believe is punk or post punk

[ও ʟᴀɴɪᴇ @2laine_]

"____ HAS CALORIES??" And it’s a human necessity. People will actually stop doing/using that necessity because it has calories. Just delete the post

[mercury @why_mercury]

@risettzs i know we dont really know each other, but you can always dm me if you need to vent - i'm not at all good at comforting, but i'm happy to listen ❤️

[mercury @why_mercury]

@matchak1tkats its such great progress to be able to accept a binge and move on from it without purging. i hope your nausea gets better soon, stay safe & great job ❤️

[mercury @why_mercury]

theoretically if i were to eat seaweed and egg whites instead of fasting would that stop my metabolism from slowing dramatically cause i still has to digest food

[mercury @why_mercury]

i have a new wl method i wanna try but i dont wanna tweet it because its really toxic i need people i actually dm for this reason my god

[mercury @why_mercury]

@wingsofbone i sent you a friend req

[mercury @why_mercury]

@starviae tysm

[mercury @why_mercury]

how quickly can i reasonably lose 10lb? 3 weeks?

[mercury @why_mercury]

in my head ill feel more valid at bmi 16 but i know when i hit it ill say i will in the 15s, i said the same thing about bmi 17s and i feel even more invalid than i did before

[mercury @why_mercury]

made the mistake of recalculating my bmr & tdee, now im cutting my calories by 100 & upping my steps by 5k

[mercury @why_mercury]

@berrytbsp i think i will since the disorder's always been about vanity for me, i only developed it cause i wanted to be attractive so i'm just going for a heroin chic kind of thing. i don't want to be any thinner than that

[mercury @why_mercury]

weird milestone but my watch no longer fits, its slides down to my hand now... issue is i would need more links off and then my dad would be aware of my weight loss