xavier

18 he/him / pro ana die / vent/ed diary

[xavier @wingsofspatula]

looking for #edrtwt + #drugtwt mutuals

- 18, he/him, eastern european
- ednos ugw 40 kg
- i like books, movies, tv shows, games n drawing
- will not fb ppl under 17 or ppl solely on shtwt

follow and i will follow back!

[aly 𒂭 @liriossp]

casi caigo en un hoyo depresivo, pero como estoy gorda no entre

[sam 🌟 @allgrayedout]

trying to post cute outfits when youre fat feels like this

[hoysoloquierogritar @sanake37]

Así se ven mis pulmones después de fumar

[xavier @wingsofspatula]

#yositwt how to get flavoured cigs when theyre banned in ur country 🤤 (in europe)

[xavier @wingsofspatula]

Cant stop thinking about getting fucked for drugs. This addiction shit get serious

[xavier @wingsofspatula]

I hate being fucking sober!!!!!!

[xavier @wingsofspatula]

If I’m not high I always relapse back into my bulimia ways there always has to be something to fill the empty and hungry hole inside of me

[xavier @wingsofspatula]

Sobriety is a genuine prison

[xavier @wingsofspatula]

@luxetamine Congrats!!

[xavier @wingsofspatula]

Highlight of my day

[xavier @wingsofspatula]

I’ve been sober too long I want to peel my skin off

[xavier @wingsofspatula]

Whenever I don’t eat, it’s easy for me to stay not eating, but whenever I eat anything it seems like I have an endless stomach and can consume anything in sight

[xavier @wingsofspatula]

My body is not my own and I need to get out of it

[nia @niasspo]

scale is lying to me.

body is lying to me.

bmi scale lying to me.

every body lying to me

[xavier @wingsofspatula]

@oxphy4am Yes instantly

[xavier @wingsofspatula]

A week sober (sadly)

[xavier @wingsofspatula]

I feel every single bit of fat on my own body and it makes me want to crawl out of my skin

[xavier @wingsofspatula]

Relapsing into my ed but trying to ignore it

[toni @toniritual]

living in fear