schmidt of edtwt

cw: fat (idk) lw: 145.2 (bmi 24.9) hw: 189 (bmi 32.4) gw: 135 ugw: 110
guess im here now.
bi (happy pride !!) ▪︎ 18 (19 soon 🥳)

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just give me like 3 years then we can talk 😭 (but if ur seeking recovery pls dont hesitate ! you can do it !!)

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well shit i never thought of it that way

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tmi i was so good today and then as soon as i finished eating dinner i had to go to bathroom and now im being punished by god for eating or smth idk 😭 I HAVENT EVEN HAD ANY DAIRY
WHAT THE HELL DID I EVEN DO TO DESERVE THIS

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istg how pretty i feel is like psychically connected to how little ive eaten.
thought i was serving face in the mirror earlier and then realized i just haven't eaten all day 💀

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@dizzymisslainey lowk it is cause its 20 min away from my house and its sm easier to fast cause theres not any food here and im only home for like 5 hours a day 😭

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what thats so weird i would never do that

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i wish clothes fit me right but instead i just keep eating 💔
anyways, does anybody have any recs for cheap relatively lowcal dinners I can mealplan? right now all i have iiiiiissss chicken and rice

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@blue4light not an oomf but gave my 2 cents anyways cause I cant read anyways oopsies

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@blue4light lowk same size to bigger than my ideal weight (which is like bmi 18.9) i just like skinny girls its not even an ed thing 😭 but im fem4fem when it comes to women so what im attracted to has def shaped my body image/what i want to look like

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@zombraee @y3onzbmi this is like the 4 billionth time ive mentioned this on here kinda cringe but wtv markiplier tried to do this and literally had to walk all day, took a small break after 70k and couldn't move his legs after 😭

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@us3lesscassette @y3onzbmi it might ive never used it 😭 but then the other numbers are super low for that

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@keepitcassiie true dat

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@uhchudmeister @fawn_doegirl me too but its better than being fat 💔

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@fawn_doegirl occasionally but I usually try not to dwell on it so I dont kms. I'll never know if I dont try !! 😭

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@derpsofshed @yaepepeeee choosing take this as fact

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@idioticdoll abt 50lbs heavier probably. Or mayb I wouldnt be fat at all who knows

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@lacehymn3 this u? 👀

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charli xcx in wink wink is exactly how i picture myself as soon as i get even a little bit skinny 😭