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(wish’s obligatory joke comment to cancel out the serious emotions)

omg…. my first ever twitter notes app apology….. and i did it at my birthday dinner! /ref

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happy birthday to me i guess

ive been meaning to post an update for a while but. well. its in the text.

didn’t have to energy to separate it all into like 10 tweets so heres the notes app screenshots

part 1

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part 2

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almost passed out in the middle of the street today lmao

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@L00SYG00SY 90% of the time i wear pants its jeans. i genuinely don’t understand people who find jeans uncomfortable??? like yeah some tight jeans are uncomfy but most aren’t imo.

im that kinda person who wears jeans at home lmao xD

[crumb @cuptoast]

were doing a give away! here is how to enter!!

follow me and @Makeship

and rt this post!

the winners will be selected randomly and contacted by makeship! good luck! (yes she comes with the box mask!)

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omg im literally pouring out my heart and soul and trauma in that thread FUCK OFF BOTS THIS IS NOT THE TIME OR PLACE!!!!!

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movie is “but im a cheerleader” btw. its like a comedy/satire (idk movie genres lmao) from the 90s i think, and its about a lesbian girl who gets sent to a small christian conversion camp.

its like an hour 40 long and free on youtube, really funny and i recommend watching it :)

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long vent/rant

im just realizing that maybe a lot of my issues is not only because of me, but because of this house.

when i was at my grandmas i felt so damn happy all the time but i didnt even really realize it until i left.
my mental health was just so much better over there.

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i didn’t tense up or see if there’s anything i need to hide when i heard my grandma come over to “my room” (except when i was watching a gay movie but, yknow :/ ), i didn’t brace myself emotionally whenever she spoke in case she would say something that hurt me accidentally,

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but i dont know, maybe im just yapping. ha

rant over

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i could do what I wanted to. i could have both headphones in. i didn’t have to worry about my moms mood or how she would interpret what i do, or be constantly aware of if my brother is going to have a breakdown and get violent.

i wasn’t forced to be “the adult” of the house.

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but now im back home and all i can think about is how much i hate everything. i hate my mom. i hate my brother. i hate this house.

i feel so disgusting and worthless and stupid and ugly and bothersome.

i hate feeling like this.
god i just wanna be happy.
i want to WANT to live.

[Wish 🦀🐍 @wishchth]

i didn’t wish she would shut up whenever she talked, i slept with the door open, i brushed my teeth every night and most mornings, i went to the fridge when i was hungry, i sat in the living room and drew even though i could’ve been hiding in my own room.