!! he literally used to put a finger gun to his head/under his chin in earlier eras. he talked in multiple interviews that during shows he let’s himself be "weird", perform the feelings of a certain song. i know this fanbase is basically 98% of mentally ill people but because
Pilgrimage has had a niche but dedicated fandom of gay ex-catholics since it came out and the fanfiction is literally some of the most beautiful writing you'll ever see. a couple years ago a pretty well-sold m/m romance author got caught blatantly plaigarizing and selling it lol