it wouldve been so much easier to just not go through all of this. to have it stopped 3 years ago. im so tired and weak. i just don’t want to struggle anymore :’)
everyone without ADHD treats it like it’s a nothingburger quirky easy to live with fake disorder and acts like it’s a minor inconvenience at best. everyone with ADHD would probably gouge both their eyes out with a spoon if it meant getting rid of this shit forever
these 2 last weeks especially the last few days have been so weird ive been on the verge of uncontrollable crying and/or a panic attack at all times i start crying so easily, ive started crying on the bus, at the store, while reading, while talking to someone even about casual
yehahh might commit myself to. a psych ward after all i almost did yesterday and today i didn’t bc today and next tuesday i have dr appointments ive waited for months for so maybe ill be able to make it till tuesday and then commit myself
went to a hospital tpday managed to talk to a psychologist there and they got me an appointment to my psychiatrist for tmrw bc after that she’s leaving till january maybe she’ll change my meds or doses and ill feel a little better next tuesday
@theehellpriest i totally get it and honestly same:’) when im feeling bad im only on my art accounts on social media and dread anything else so that says a lot. i hope u feel better soon, it’s so sad that thr internet looks like it does now:’))