Somewhere in your 20s or 30s you'll get the opportunity to rebuild your life after a negative loop, heal from what broke you, live in your own space, reconnect with your discipline, and learn to love yourself again. It's very important that you see that journey through.
A man can stay up til 2 a.m., wake up at 6, be in debt, broke, alone, and still have faith that one day, everything will work out. It's called being a man.
One of the best things my therapist ever told me was if you struggle to know what you actually want, what you like, or who you are, it might be because you spent years being who everyone else needed you to be.