kiis
to be loved at your worst, and at your best - to have fun doing the sport you only saw as a way of staying alive..
isagi was kaiser’s affirmation, and the catalyst to his obsession. bringing both comfort, yet discomfort, an anomaly in kaiser’s rigid fight for his future.
his future.
/kaiser sometimes does wonder what would’ve happened if he never met yoichi - but alas, he’s always had the habit of not dwelling too much on the past. and hey, let’s face it - there’s noone else worthy enough for kaiser’s attention and mind other than yoichi...!/
hard to admit. he’s thankful for isagi for making him feel this way, even if kaiser thinks it’s fucking shitty.
against his own faults, this was the destiny he decided to follow - meeting isagi yoichi was something he /chose/ to do. he /chose/ this path - and with that,
the person he is fixated on.
a deep enough fixation, that it forced kaiser to be willing to rebuild himself. to take his ego, stabilise it, and to destroy isagi with it. no matter what.
so, kaiser guesses, the last thing he feels towards isagi was thankful - even if that’s
he wants to learn everything about yoichi… to his habits, his interests, his dislikes, his mentality, his personality, his life, his friends, his enemies, his rivalries, his family… isagi yoichi takes over every living thought in kaiser’s mind.
the driver of his obsession,
feel loved by him too.
freedom, in kaiser’s eyes, is love. being in love and feeling love, on the other hand, is a trap. it makes kaiser do “weird things”.
it actually seemed out of character, but he’s never felt this way before. how was he supposed to know how to act?
from underground, to the surface. from zero, to a new person.
what michael kaiser also associated towards isagi yoichi was love. not only towards, but felt.
he hated how isagi made him feel this sort of emotion for him. let alone, he hated how vulnerable isagi made him to
temporary fix, a way to easily get started again - a quick way to rebuild what used to be there.
what comes with a temporary fix, however, is instability. concrete in the earth’s middle does not grow. it is stuck as it is, a barrier between the roots beneath and the surface.
to build, to perfect an atmosphere around the globe of your world, just for what you thought was a pitiful, measly meteor - crashes into your side and suddenly there’s a huge crater in your center.
it would take time to the earth to repair it. human intervention could be a
kaiser’s feelings towards isagi were… complicated, to say the least.
on the surface, it was hatred. isagi yoichi dismantled kaiser’s entire system and place on bastard munchen; cracked and bashed and broke the glass of what was kaiser’s ego. /of course/ kaiser hated him.
@kiissg_ LOL also im hearing from the streets that kaiser made a kissing sound after saying ‘what the hell? is that another way of saying ‘i love you?’’ … makes up for it …!!