Mian

How did everything goes?

[Mian @writethepast]

My last seven minutes would be you

[Mian @writethepast]

There will be time when all of this finally makes sense

[Mian @writethepast]

You reach one goal and find another problem.
You solve one question and end up with three more.
You tell yourself, “Once I get there, things will finally make sense.”

Then you get there.

And life just keeps going

[Mian @writethepast]

For once again, the world reminds me that there will always be uncertainty.

It doesn’t matter how carefully you plan things.
It doesn’t matter how much time you spend thinking things through.
It doesn’t matter if you’ve already decided where the finish line is

[Mian @writethepast]

Something changes.
Something happens.
Something you never considered enters the picture.

And suddenly what felt clear doesn’t feel so clear anymore.

I think that’s the part that gets exhausting.

Not the uncertainty itself, but realizing that it never really goes away

[sara @winidepuw]

santai aja, ini cuma dunia.

[Mian @writethepast]

Okay, I should sleep

[Mian @writethepast]

Have you ever wondered what the point of surviving all of this actually is?

[Mian @writethepast]

Maybe I just searching for an ultimate justification that removes all ambiguity

A reason that makes suffering, effort, and mortality fully make sense

And I may never get that

[Mian @writethepast]

But is it really that simple?

[Mian @writethepast]

To create honest things

To witness beauty without trying to own it

To become softer instead of colder after everything life puts you through

Not because any of it lasts forever

But because for a brief moment, it was real

[Mian @writethepast]

To love people deeply even knowing they won’t stay forever

[Mian @writethepast]

So maybe the point of life was never permanence

Maybe it was never about reaching a state of endless happiness

Maybe the point is simply being awake enough to experience all of it while it’s here

[Mian @writethepast]

A conversation that changes you forever still ends
A song only lasts a few minutes
Sunsets disappear almost immediately
People leave
Moments pass
Photographs fade with time

Yet somehow we still consider those things beautiful

[Mian @writethepast]

Maybe the problem is expecting life to resolve itself into one final answer.
Because some of the most meaningful things in life were never permanent to begin with

[Mian @writethepast]

But lately I’ve been thinking maybe the problem is not that life is meaningless

[Mian @writethepast]

But people adapt to everything eventually.
Dreams become routines.
Excitement becomes familiarity.
Even beautiful things lose their intensity after enough exposure.

And maybe that realization is what makes some people feel empty despite having the life they once prayed for

[Mian @writethepast]

Not because it isn’t real, but because we expected it to feel permanent.

We were taught to imagine happiness as an arrival point.
A final destination.
A version of life where confusion disappears and everything suddenly makes sense

[Mian @writethepast]

You achieve some of it
You heal from certain things
You become older
Life becomes quieter
And one day you realize the world never paused long enough to tell you “Congratulations you made it. You can stop searching now”

Maybe that’s why happiness can sometimes feel strangely dull

[Mian @writethepast]

We spend most of our lives waking up early, exhausting ourselves, chasing stability, chasing dreams, chasing versions of happiness we convinced ourselves would finally make everything feel worth it.

And then what?

[Mian @writethepast]

Maybe forever was never the point
Maybe feeling something real was

[Mian @writethepast]

Some people think moving on means forgetting

I don’t think that’s true