as a r word survivor you truly evil for saying it is kind of a flex.. i couldnt stomach the fact that someone else out there thinking what i have been going through to deal with the trauma anywhere near as a "flex"
kamu nyuruh aku jaga omongan just because i was reacting to the situation. tapi kamu sendiri? sampe hari ini, aku masih sakit hati tiap inget ucapan defensif kamu tiap kita berantem. kamu selalu bilang ‘communicate’, tapi gak jarang deeptalk kita berujung ribut dan aku yang salah
Neneku dari dulu selalu pesen, “Kalau nolak cowok baik-baik ya.” atau “walaupun kamu gak suka, tetep baik ya dek sama dia. Kita gapernah tau orang kalau sakit hati bakalan ngapain” Imagine having to bear someone’s lack of emotional regulation for the rest of their lives.
imo the concept of "jangan keliatan kecintaan" just to be loved back is so exhausting. i don't get it aslii cs im always gonna be all in with my feelings and if they decide to be toxic or act up yaudah it's their loss 🤷🏻♀️