aika

20 | 168 cm/59,8 kg | personal diary
gw 1: 52
gw 2: 46
ugw: 40

[aika @wvsbmi]

idk if im being delusional but maybe all this scale fluctuation is bc im supposed to have my period in two days

[aika @wvsbmi]

@llIucky no this shit happened to me too 😭😭 every day i cry over what couldve been well-rounded c cups 💔

[lucky @llIucky]

an ed will truly take your boobs permanently if your body is still developing. i was 15 when i reached my lw and even after years or recovery and gaining weight back my boobs never returned. no joke i’m the flattest girl i‘ve ever seen

[aika @wvsbmi]

again ❤️‍🔥 no fresh strawbs this time bc ya girl broke
328c

[aika @wvsbmi]

ive started to have this exact breakfast like 5 times a week
338c

[aika @wvsbmi]

ive started to have this exact breakfast like 5 times a week
338c

[aika @wvsbmi]

@Luxury0fAGrave are the froosh energy drinks good?? in finland i only get nocco and puhdistamo i gotta branch out 😌

[aika @wvsbmi]

@Luxury0fAGrave no youre gorgeous + amazing hair color 🫶

[aika @wvsbmi]

@leir0rtc i quit all my meds cold turkey back in 2024 and tbh going on walks was better for my mental health than 4 years of psychiatric treatment so i totally agree w you 😭 but this was my first time going of my own volition w/o my parents’ intervention so i was able to be more honest

[aika @wvsbmi]

went to the doc today w the uni counsellor’s referral, the poor thing was like early 20s almost my age and i think i scared her 😭 she gave me xanax and said to take it twice a day EVERY DAY until i get in contact with the psychiatrist and ed services she referred me to

[star (tympörö) @Starrics]

Things I have noticed since stopping purging

1. Binges are way smaller and less frequent
2. Skin is way clearer
3. I look skinnier even if I weigh more
4. Slim face
5. Better mood
6. I think about nutrients in my meals more instead of just enjoyment

[aika @wvsbmi]

not doing that btw 😭 LMAO sorry guys i have boundaries i only overuse ritalin ❤️‍🔥

[bianca @revivefromashes]

Non voglio dire niente tesoro ma lo yogurt GRECO che non trovi in EUROPA mi fa un po' sorridere

[alice @rottentoo]

i'm on edtwt not cus of my ed which i'm larping no i'm on edtwt cus edtwt is my diary

[silver | edtwt | semi-recov @starvingsilver]

i fucking hate the way i was raised around food - force fed until plates clean, forced to eat food i didn’t like, no food waste allowed and so much more.
it fucked up my relationship with food from day one i swear to god.

[aika @wvsbmi]

counselling went well and today i hit the gym, got 20k steps, did pilates, stretched, and ive only had 600 cal we’re so back 🤭

[aika @wvsbmi]

@f0lklxrr_ ma davvero 😋

[aika @wvsbmi]

yeah….

[aika @wvsbmi]

i went from 65 kg to 59 kg in 19 days can i get a cooki

[aika @wvsbmi]

@broh1173 keep focusing on yourself then 😭 and maybe try having some compassion, its an addiction like any other and im seeking help to stop it.

also michael jackson notoriously suffered from bulimia and many male body builders do too so idk where you were trying to go with this

[aika @wvsbmi]

tmr im locking in again, today can calorically never happen again and i promised my bf i would quit purging for good after my counselling appointment tomorrow, so today was just like a goodbye i guess

[aika @wvsbmi]

@Aubri_Milli its sadly ruined me financially ☹️ but i have to bc i live alone & when i dont buy binge food on purpose im an ingredient household

also is there science behind trying to curate the “perfect” binge thatll be the last one & you will never wanna binge again or is it just me LMAO

[aika @wvsbmi]

@broh1173 are you trying to compensate for a lack of something by reposting quotes from people whose thought you dont understand or apply to your life? would nietzsche & dostoyevski be wasting their time telling a random girl online to “sybau”? direct this anger toward overcoming your self