an ed will truly take your boobs permanently if your body is still developing. i was 15 when i reached my lw and even after years or recovery and gaining weight back my boobs never returned. no joke i’m the flattest girl i‘ve ever seen
@leir0rtc i quit all my meds cold turkey back in 2024 and tbh going on walks was better for my mental health than 4 years of psychiatric treatment so i totally agree w you 😭 but this was my first time going of my own volition w/o my parents’ intervention so i was able to be more honest
went to the doc today w the uni counsellor’s referral, the poor thing was like early 20s almost my age and i think i scared her 😭 she gave me xanax and said to take it twice a day EVERY DAY until i get in contact with the psychiatrist and ed services she referred me to
Things I have noticed since stopping purging
1. Binges are way smaller and less frequent
2. Skin is way clearer
3. I look skinnier even if I weigh more
4. Slim face
5. Better mood
6. I think about nutrients in my meals more instead of just enjoyment
i fucking hate the way i was raised around food - force fed until plates clean, forced to eat food i didn’t like, no food waste allowed and so much more.
it fucked up my relationship with food from day one i swear to god.
@broh1173 keep focusing on yourself then 😭 and maybe try having some compassion, its an addiction like any other and im seeking help to stop it.
also michael jackson notoriously suffered from bulimia and many male body builders do too so idk where you were trying to go with this
tmr im locking in again, today can calorically never happen again and i promised my bf i would quit purging for good after my counselling appointment tomorrow, so today was just like a goodbye i guess
@Aubri_Milli its sadly ruined me financially ☹️ but i have to bc i live alone & when i dont buy binge food on purpose im an ingredient household
also is there science behind trying to curate the “perfect” binge thatll be the last one & you will never wanna binge again or is it just me LMAO
@broh1173 are you trying to compensate for a lack of something by reposting quotes from people whose thought you dont understand or apply to your life? would nietzsche & dostoyevski be wasting their time telling a random girl online to “sybau”? direct this anger toward overcoming your self