bang chan crashing out about the pancake vs. crepe debate 😭😭
🐺: "it looks like a crepe!" I KNOW! BUT IT SAID PANCAKE ON THE MENU! then as the customer, as the person who's enjoying this, i'm gonna say it's a PANCAKE!! i can't just be like OH YOU KNOW THIS IS A CREPE WHY'D YOU PUT PANCAKE ON THE MENU. i can't-i was just respecting the chef. leave me alone. hahaha
the long awaited Chan’s room comeback after 3 years ㅠㅠㅠ
🐺anyway, i will get going then *starting to do his signature pose* wow that just came out of habit, since it’s been a while, should we end it the way we used to? like old times..Yeah… why not, just came out of habit, i was like ‘Wow…..oh wow!’ Yeah, we should do it, it will be nice to do it~
🐺i feel so surreal to be here doing live with everyone, it really doesn’t feel real. Anyway, it really isn’t anything particularly special of a day but thank you so so much for celebrating my birthday. Rather than thanking me, i think should say thank you to our Jack and Jessica, after all mom and dad are the people i should be most grateful to because they gave birth to me.
🐺anyway, ‘Thank you for being born’ as for this one…i also want to say something to all of you, ‘Thank you for being born’…. anyway shall we wrap up the end of my birthday nicely?
❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️❤️
Ohhhhhh! Sungjae is singing Soyeon’s I’m Gonna TOESA!!
This is so funny! Hahaha. Sungjae is literally singing a song about quitting to CUBE, his former company. LOL 😂
han’s birthday plan (with leeknow 😭)
sleep > space out > workout > eat > watch shorts > take a nap > hangout with leeknow hyung (for the rest of the day)
this hyunchan moment is so dear to me, hj singing his heart out (+blind spot’s fitting lyrics) with chan in front of him watching him proudly, knowing what he's gone through with his voice and seeing where he is now. then catching him🥹 what a beautiful moment
kim seungmin….💔 this is his honest feelingㅠㅠ
🐶 Anyway the 2-week promotion period has already come to an end.
Honestly, ever since the concert, I had this vague feeling like… “Can I really do this?” I kept thinking about whether I could stay right next to the members, without missing a single beat and manage to do all of this.
It was a very vague, uncertain feeling.
But at the same time, this is obviously something I have to do. I’m a member of the group, it’s my job and there are so many STAYs who are watching and supporting us so there are things that I naturally have to do. And because of that, I also wondered if I should even feel proud of myself for having gotten through this somehow differently from usual. Like, “Is it okay for me to feel proud of myself for this?”
Anyway, I still haven’t really been able to let this promotion go yet, that’s because, with these music show promotions, I was the one who said that I would somehow join in. I felt like if I was going to be separated from the members even on stage ans if I just stayed by myself doing rehab and resting alone… Of course, I know that I was supposed to rest, but if I did, somehow, both emotionally and mentally, I just couldn’t accept it for myself.
Everyone carries some degree of pain with them and still works and goes on living their lives. That’s just how you learn to live, I think. So even in those moments, I really hated showing it or letting it show that I was in pain. But at the same time, I couldn’t cause any problems for the others either, because you never know what might happen. What if I was performing on stage and a situation came up where I genuinely couldn’t keep going? Then, if I had to leave the stage in the middle of a performance again, someone would have to fill in for my position in the choreography. It’s easy to say but when one person is missing, someone else inevitably has to fill that space and there’s still going to be an empty spot somewhere. So, for the formations this time, since I wasn’t able to participate in the group choreography during the MV, I thought, “Let’s just focus on the meaning of me being able to stand on stage together with them while keeping the members’ original formations.”That’s what I told the company and the choreographers as well. Because you never know, I could have ended up having to leave again in the middle of a performance. So even if I was mostly hidden a little, I thought I’d just put meaning into being there together with them in the back and then come forward during my parts and do my best to make sure my face was seen.
That was how I tried my best, in my own way, to get through it.
Those were honestly my feelings about it. This is all really true.
So I guess I feel a little bittersweet about it.
In my own position, I’m genuinely doing my best. I truly mean that.